I lost my phone.
No. Scratch that. Start over.
Somebody stole my phone.
I placed it on a table in the back of the Asmadi Games room, under my necklace and some scissors. I turned away to work on setting up for my Ridiculympics event. The phone, and only the phone, was missing when I came back a few minutes later.
We turned on "find my iphone", we tracked it (it's been in the same location pretty much since it was stolen, has not changed in the slightest), Sparr used the "make a noise" thing to ping it as he walked all around the area (literally 75 times --I get an email every time he did it) we set up a message, all nothing.
Bullshit icing number one: Lex_of_Green and I, with mom and Barb and some other folks, did a Fucking Awesome Mad Max cosplay photoshoot this afternoon. Which ended less than an hour before my phone was stolen, and I was so busy with GenCon work I didn't even have time to upload any to Twitter.
(There were a lot of photos on a lot of cameras, but damnit, everyone got a slightly different set.)
Bullshit icing number two: Y'all remember my schedule? I will not be in Boston again for almost a month. I am traveling all the fuck over *and* I'm at a con where I'm trying to logisticate with people I like.
(I will be in Chicago with mom, which, being as I'm on a family plan, is optimal for getting a new phone -which we can potentially do- or renewing my old phone --which I again can potentially do. Yes, I have Nyota with me at con right now, don't ask, it's a total coincidence.)
Bullshit icing number three: I was signed up to attend one and only one specific event this entire convention, the Dead Gentlemen's Gamer's Live Improv Show. It was at 6:00 tonight. My phone went missing at about 5:45. I opted to look (using mom's phone which GPS'd to my phone) real quick. Late turned into 7:15 and "fuck it, I have an event to run in half an hour anyways" and I missed the whole thing.
(K is friends/coworkers for much of Dead Gentlemen. There will be other opportunities, *good* opportunities someday, probably better than the ones most people get.)
And when it comes right down to it...my family can afford to get me another phone. It won't even be a strain. If this particular disaster had to happen to anyone, well, I can take the damage easier than 95 percent of everyone. Losing the photos sucks --but thanks to iCloud I only lost three days, and some of the GenCon photos I had sent to friends or tweeted, and I can get them back sometime later.
I prayed. Directly and with words, which I only rarely do, and to all three of my gods at once, which I *never* do --specifically, Athe and Gaea occupy literally opposite physical spaces in that one is a goddess of the outdoors and nature and the other is a goddess of human ingenuity and creation. The only thing I could think to sacrifice (which didn't seem either cheap or unreasonably expensive for what is a thing that can honestly just be a bad thing) was my bile, my cynicism, my need for vengence, my quiet dark hatred of "there's 100 ways that we can bruise each other" and "people fucking suck".
"I will be kind." I whispered. "I will not stop being kind".
In this space, what that means is you can call the specific person who did this an asshole. But you can't swear vengeance
on them, you can't threaten to hurt them, you can't swear you'll "make them pay!" Probably their life has been less good on the whole than mine is, probably something has gone seriously wrong if they think it's okay to steal phones and I am sad for that.
And you can't tell me people suck, and you can't tell me that the world is awful, and you can't tell me "this is what you get for leaving your phone on a table in a crowded game room". Because I believe in a world where the people in a nice friendly joyful environment like Asmadi do not do that.
I will make that world by leading by example. I will be kind.
(it is my sacrifice and not yours, you can do those things if you really want. But I would feel uncomfortable, and I would feel grateful if you don't try to commiserate with me by emphasizing that we damage each other.)
(I think I would prefer not to have helpful suggestions on this thread? I have not detailed quite everything I've done, but me and Sparr (and mom and Chris and jere7my) are all smart people and all have given their best advice, and I'd like to have a space where I don't have to say over and over "yes, tried that". If you really care, go tell me helpful things on the Facebook thread or on Twitter or something.)